HAIKU

It’s been so long since the last time I posted something in wordpress. Guess now is the time to start again.. This time I’m gonna use this to list few of my HAIKU(s) I made this past 3 years. There are only 8 of them but there will be more to come.

TEA

No sun yet no moon,

and I am drinking my tea,

in the darkness.

(July, 2012)

PILLOW

My pillow,

for you to keep –

in random dreams we meet.

(August, 2012)

TODAY

Hot heavy air –

The coldness of ice,

that frightens me.

(August, 2012)

DEATH

The death of a dear one,

at the end of the dry season –

The memory linger.

(August, 2012)

*In memory of Felix Andy Suprianto*

HEADACHE

Spinning head –

Is the mind also

flying around?

(August 2012)

BIKE

A windy summer,

Riding a bike with stranger –

Get lost in a dream…

(September, 2014)

WORKING

Morning, noon, night –

eyes on computer.

I miss July…

(September, 2014)

DECEMBER

Eating chestnuts,

There’s no snow-but still

Christmas in my heart

(December, 2014)

I will become a butterfly if I die…

Fluttered high into the sky… without ever wondering why.

See the world from up above, look beyond the wings of dove…

Feel the cold wind when I swoop down… or sometimes feel the burst of the sun.

I will become a butterfly if I die…

Purple is the color… Embellished with bright yellow dots like the solar.

Suck the honey here and there, taste the morning dew that are rare…

Find a shelter in the grassland border… or posing with the pretty flower…

I will become a butterfly if I die…

Pygmy and fairy will be my forever friend, playing together, the world has no end.

Find a treasure at the end of a rainbow, then disguise it from the wicked crow.

You may think it’s only a fantasy, but my friend… it is truthfully a reality…

I will become a butterfly if I die…

On their earth there is no treachery… nor even jealousy.

It’s a world of freedom.. never a boredom.

One can choose to fly free, or perhaps just to perch in a tree…

I will become a butterfly if I die…

The clock’s ticking slower… and therefore days will be for ever longer.

Minutes are days and days are years, it’s just the way it has to be…

Don’t bother the time, said other butterfly… for the time will always come.

I will become a butterfly if I die…

Not to wave my wings goodbye, but to give you the warmest ‘Hi’.

To descend on your ring finger… and blessed you with happiness ever…

If you wish I will not leave, around your shoulder I will stay and heave.

I will become a butterfly if I die… You don’t need to ask me why…

The Asian Conference on Arts & Humanities (ACAH 2012)

This April I went to Osaka, Japan, to attend a very interesting event called “The Asian Conference on Arts & Humanities” held by IAFOR (The International Academic Forum). This event was held from April 5-8, 2012 at the Ramada Hotel, Osaka. More than 250 people participated in this international event.

I have to say that it was truly an exciting experience! I am still overwhelmed by the memory of so many great moments I spent during the conference. I woke up in the morning full of enthusiasm to attending the participants’ presentations and got ready to be inspired by each of them. And I have to say that I woke up in the morning also full of enthusiasm to enjoying delicious breakfast buffet at the Ramada, hahaha..

I feel so blessed because I had the chance to go. Even though I had to spend all of my savings, this journey has given me new experience, new knowledge, and new friends as a return!

So here’s a glimpse of things that I experienced during the conference.

After the registration, all of the participants were invited to a welcome drink reception at the Lampada Bar where we all had the chance to meet the organizer, the keynote speakers, and also other presenters. Professor Picken as the Chairman gave the opening remarks and then lead few people that were selected by the organizer (including me, hehehe..) to do a Japanese traditional ceremony (I believe it is called “Kagami Biraki”). The chosen people had to open a barrel of Sake by smacking a stick into the barrel. It’s not just a regular Sake, it’s Taruzume-Sake or Taru Sake, a dry Japanese Sake which brewed in casks. Wow, it’s an honor for me to do it together with Dr. Joseph Haldane as the Executive Director, Professor Steve Cornwell as the Conference Chair, and also Dr. Monty as one of the Featured Speakers.. After that, all of the guests could taste the Sake. I myself only tasted a little. A mouthful should be enough for me, or else I couldn’t find the way back to my room, hahahahaha.. 

Japanese Traditional Ceremony

The following day started with parallel session. There were at least 3 parallel sessions on each day. I had confusion on choosing which session I wanted to attend because there were a lot of interesting topics. In the afternoon we listened to one featured speaker, Professor Georges Depeyrot who spoke about “Silver, Bimetallism, and Japan”, and then afterwards we listened to the keynote speaker, Professor Akito Arima who spoke about “Symmetries in Arts, Culture, and Nature”.

After this long first day, we took a short break and then went together by foot to a restaurant for the official conference dinner. It was freaking cold for me and I forgot to bring my gloves.. But I still could give a big smile for a photo!! Hehe..

Fortunately, the restaurant is not too far away from the Ramada Hotel. It was a great  moment to get to know other people more. It was so fun and enjoyable. Not forget to mention, it was a time to spoil your tongue with overflowing scrumptious real Japanese cuisine..

We all went back to the hotel with big full belly..

The next morning there’s a Haiku workshop by Ms Emiko Miyashita. In this workshop we learned about Haiku-a short form of Japanese poetry-and how to write it. I never heard about Haiku before and very interested to know more. I really enjoyed this session since I also learned about Indonesian traditional poetry and English poetry when I was in high school. At the end of the workshop, all of us tried to write our very own Haiku and then read it in front. It was very exciting! Special thanks to Ms Miyashita for her alluring presentation about Haiku 🙂

After the Haiku workshop we all rushed to the parallel session again. And in the afternoon we gathered in the Sakura Room to attend a presentation from the last featured speaker, Dr. Monty P. Satiadarma, who gave an insightful argument about “The Necessities of Art Courses in Academic Settings”.

On this second night I was sort of meditating in my room, preparing myself for my own presentation on the next morning. It’s my first time presenting a paper in an international event, so I think it’s normal to feel a little bit nervous! Hehehehe..

My presentation was on the last day of the conference. It was on Easter day, April 8, 2012. I presented a paper about “The Vivaldi Effect on Emotional Regulation of Babies”. It went well even though there were not many participants watching. I believe it’s because a lot of participants were busy watching the blooming Sakura. Hahaha.. Well, I don’t blame them, because it’s very very beautiful to see..

After my presentation, there were 3 more parallel sessions.. And in the afternoon, around 5 PM, the remaining participants gathered with the organizer for a closing ceremony.. Professor Picken gave a closing remarks and then we made a group photo 🙂

I am so happy that I could pass through all of the schedule in the conference smoothly without any disruption. The organizer is very professional. They had been very helpful and supportive during the conference. I really would like to join the next ACAH or other conferences held by IAFOR because now I know that this organization consist of people who have high dedication to the advancement of science in many fields. Their motto, “International, Intercultural, Interdisciplinary” is really manifested through this conference. Many thanks to the organizer for their hard work! *two thumbs up*

After participating in an exciting yet mind-draining event (hahaha..), of course I wouldn’t miss the opportunity to enjoy the beauty of blooming Sakura everywhere around Osaka. It was truly enchanting! I couldn’t stop myself for taking pictures here, there, and everywhere!

The great conference with great people in great surroundings made this journey really worth 🙂

The Silent Scream

Dear you,

 

Yes, you..

I speak to you now in the dark.

 

Yes, you..

I know you from long time ago..

But it’s so funny that..

I see you, I touch you, but I don’t feel you..

 

Yes, you..

The one who taught me how to sing.. The one who taught me how to dance..

But you… Never taught me how to love.

 

Yes you,

You told me, “That’s love”. . .  while I said, “You thought that it’s love”…

Years gone by and still..

 

Yes, you…

Too many tears I shed because of you, yet..

There are too many words left unspoken..

 

But now I speak to you in the dark.

 

Yes, you…

You may never feel my pain, you may never see me cry

You may only feel that I don’t care.

 

Yes, you…

You may never hear my voice, you may never hear it sings

Because words don’t come easily.. even in a song.

 

Yes, you…

Too many hours I spent in silence

Wondering what I have done wrong..

 

But now I speak to you in the dark.

 

Yes, you…

One day you will remember me.. And ask why we never speak under a tree?

While words are there… and clear to see.

 

Yes, you…

When that one day comes, I shall answer in my prayer

But still in silence.

 

So now I speak to you in the dark.

 

Yes, you…

Forgive me when I say.. Forgive me when I don’t say..

Or don’t even bother.. Just leave me here where I stay.

 

Yes, you…

For you once I stand.. But now..

No more I can, no more I can.

 

Yes, you…

It’s okay to choose your path..

But we might not see each other once again… in the bend.

 

So now I speak to you in the dark.

 

Yes, you…

You may never regret the things you said.

But your voice remains here.. with me in my soul.

 

Yes, you…

There’s nothing else I can do.

I hope I have the courage to be true..

 

Yes, you…

I speak to you now in the dark.

Friday the 13th !!!!

Bener-bener hari yang menegangkaaaan dan akan diingat seumur hidup..

Masih ingat betapa senangnya 2 tahun lalu mulai memasuki bangku kuliah kembali, demi mendapatkan penyegaran dengan ilmu-ilmu baru bersama teman-teman yang lama dan baru..

Setelah 2 tahun, betapa inginnya semua itu selesai. Dan hari ini adalah hari di mana semuanya telah selesai !!!

HOoorrraaay… Well, meskipun masih ada revisi, tapi tetep aja.. Rasanya beban 500 kg terlepas dari pundak. Thanks God !! Semua berjalan lancar meskipun prosesnya lebih menegangkan daripada naik roller coaster ataupun proses tawar menawar di tanah abang.

Perjuangan dan perjalanan ke sana kemari menerobos hujan dan badai tidak sia-sia. Naik turun ojek, penuh debu, darah, dan air mata (mulai lebay) terbayar sudaaaaaah.. Dengan nilai A di tangan, rasanya sudah siap menghadapi semua tantangan hidup. Ceilleeee… Pengen sih menuliskan bagaimana proses sidang tadi, tapiii.. bakalan panjang nggak habis-habis sambung menyambung semacam dari sabang sampai merauke. Lagian kayaknya bakalan bikin serem mahasiswa2 yang belum pada ujian. Hhaahahaahahak..

Habis ini hanya satu yang ingin dilakukan.. Tiduuuuuuuurrr dengan nyenyak… *Grooookk*

Uploading Video on YouTube For The First Time !!

 

Yeeaayy… Today I managed to upload one of my choir’s videos on youtube !! After waiting for approx. 8 hours, finally my first video appears on my youtube channel.. Thanks to Andi Kurniawan for recording this video, and thanks to my brother for the video cam, hehehe.. Thanks to Mr. Darmawan Susilo for the uplifting accompaniment, and thanks a million for my great choristers.. You guys are the best !! 🙂 I know that the place and surroundings were not helping at all (with carpets everywhere , very very high ceiling, very large space  with only few things to rebound the voice, and also the video cam is not very good, hiks..) but I am happy with the result. Hehehehe.. Love you all 😀

And here are the choristers (from left to right)

Female: Fransiska Yuliana Halim, Priska Vidyanti aka Jembi, Shindy Carolina Leonardus aka Dhukun, Novita Fransiska aka Nobi, Devi Nirmala aka Cici, Grevy Yanika, Anastasia Liangga Kumala aka Sisi, Ester Gian aka Pikachu, Lisa Margaret Tjakra aka Sapi, Eresabeat Julia aka Eli

Male: Harison Theng aka Sonteng, Ernest Rene, Ricco Marcell, Ignasius Tryanto aka Acun, Raffaelo Hein, Gian Oktavianto, Sien Stefanus Agung Permadi, Felix Justeja, Daniel Soetanto, Yoel Indra, Adi Thio Cakra Nagara

Conducted by me, hihihihihihi… 😀

Enjoy the video !!!

 

New Year’s Resolutions – 2012

Thanks to Pastor Jonathan, I finally have clear ideas about my new year’s resolutions.. After reading his blog about 5 Keys to Making and Keeping Your New Year’s Resolutions, I can write this down clearly.

So he said that the first key is to:

“Define the Win”

Uuumm… That will be a lot since I have lots and lots of things to do and want to achieve until the end of 2012 !! So I am starting to list them now. First, I will read more books. To make it precise, I have to read at least 2 books in a month. I will publish (again) at least one international publication related to psychology or music or a combination of both. I will take care myself better by taking more veggies, having enough rest every day, and exercising more. I will master one more language (Hhmm… Which one is better? German, Italian, or Spanish??).. All of them excites me !! Hehehehe.. And then I have to travel to at least 3 different countries (Please, God?). I really really want to see the wooooorld.. 😀

And then the second key is to:

“Make Smaller Goals Along the Way”

So that means I have to read 1 book in 2 weeks, I have to make new research to be published internationally, I have to drink my CSP every day or eat veggies few times a week, reducing the web surfing, and swim at least twice a month.. And then I have to make more money to take language course once a week and to be able to travel here and there… #phew. Hahahahaha…

The third key is:

“Don’t Be Afraid to Ask for Help”

Uumm… So this means I need to get suggestions or consult some expertises related to what I am about to do.. I just have to find the right person to ask.. I am listing few people already now… #citizensbeware

The next key is:

“Make The Goal With A Friend or A Group of Friends” 

Wow, this is cool.. So, who wanna join me?? Hehehehee.. Probably my friend, Dito want to join me eating more and more veggies to get in shape and also exercising more this year??? (Dude, I know this is not your thing..), hahaha.. #slapindaface, oouucchh…

And the last key is:

“Evaluate Your Result” 

Hhhmm.. This means we have to set an end date, and every goal whether it’s achived or not, will be a chance to learn. The learning will involve evaluating what went wrong and what went right, and then we need to be better and set another target for the upcoming year.. Well, this sure does look quite easy, but I have a feeling that it’s not gonna be easy. Eerrr.. Knowing that I am sometimes can be very moody (You know, since I am an artist, I have to have this kind of moody thingy, hahahaha…), it will be a hard work !!

No worries though.. I am still full of new year’s energy and excitements !! Hopefully it will last until the end of this year, heheheehe.. Bless me, Lord  0=)

Scary Scary Night instead of Starry Starry Night

I had this really really mysterious moment last night…

You all know that I have a “quite bad” sleeping habit. I can go to bed really early, or really really late.. This mysterious moment happened to be when I went to bed quite late. So, here’s what happened.

After the choir rehearsal with The Monarch last night, Eli took me, Ricco, Jacob, and Hein to have dinner together at Brusselspring, Central Park. I think it was around 10.30 PM already.. We met Eli’s friends, Cencen and Christine (?) – sorry for my Short Term Memory Loss. They happened to be having their own conversation, while me and the “kids” (ooppss.. hahahhaa..) were having ours.

Well, I didn’t remember who started to talk about this mystical thingy. But soon after we finished our meal, we drove into this kind of chit chat. Hein shared his story, then I shared my story (as always, since I am kinda surrounded by this kind of thing), and so did Jacob. I didn’t remember whether Ricco’s also shared his..

At around 11.45 PM Eli drove me back home..  Then as always, I play the Sims Social, CastleVille, and Smurf, to get the daily bonus (hehehehehe) while surfing the web for few of my projects as well. Then suddenly, around 1.45 AM, the door that connects my room to the small chamber outside opened by itself !!!! First there’s a “CLICK” sound, then the door’s open, leaving 15 until 20 cm gap, and I could see clearly that there’s no one there !!!! I am the only one on this first floor, while my helper, her husband and daughter are at the third floor, so who could it be ???!!!! or WHAT could it be ???!!

Aaaaarrrrrggghhhh…  So CREEPY !!!! I hope it’s not a sort of “bad sign” or anything like that.

I didn’t dare to go outside even though I was sooo thirsty… Huhuhuhuhuhu… But then I gathered all of the guts I got to reach the door, push it forward, unhurried, until it made a “CLICK” sound again. This time, I just couldn’t leave it unlocked !!! Goooossssh…. !!! My heart’s still beating so fast now..

I was soooo scared to go to bed but then I felt really really tired. I turned on every lamp in my room, turned the TV on, grabbed  my blanket fast, tuck myself in, and tried to get some sleep. But I tell you, it was sooooooo hard. So this morning I had a really bad headache.. Gee…

Still feeling quite dizzy now, but I gotta prepare myself for the caroling tonight.. *sigh* Wish me luck !

Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace

I could not ask for more, O Lord.. 

And I shall wait for the eternal life 

To be united once again with You 

Let it be my greatest desire and purpose of life 

. . . 

AMEN 

The story of me, the Kuan Yin tea, Mr Pringles, and the beautiful Harrods bag

It’s a damn cold (lonely) night again…

Freezing… inside and outside… Nothing’s special…

Here I am, accompanied by things I cherish in my every night and day.

I can see a cup of “almost cold” Kuan Yin tea that I drank around 30 minutes ago.. It’s been the best company I have during days like this.. in fact I think it will be the best company I have for the rest of my life! It will never let me down.. It will accompany me during my good and bad times.. It will listen to my stories.. It will give me warmth while I’m sitting alone in the corner of my broken heart, or while I’m standing still thinking about the one I miss dearly. In any circumstances, it will always be there for me…

Not so far, I see Mr Pringles with his great big mustache looking back at me as I look at him. He looks nice with that bowties he’s wearing. I like that he’s here in my room.. Hhhmm… Just bought the Sour Cream & Onion flavor. I became addicted to this flavor eversince someone passed me this on the bus on my way from Prague to Vienna with Shantell Vocal Ensemble a few weeks ago.. Thanks to that “someone”, now I can buy other flavor rather than just the “Original”.

And now, I see my Harrods bag lying down beautifully… Aaahh… I don’t know how many stories I have shared with “her”… Yes, it’s a SHE… Hahahha.. Someday if you meet her, you will know why it’s a SHE not a HE… Having her with me is definitely one of the greatest gifts of all.. She’s been very supportive so far, even though she’s actually quite new in my best friends’ list…

But still.. It’s so cold..

So quiet outside, yet rumbling inside..

Tranquility, please come to me..

I want to feel at ease..

Far away..

Someday..

With you..

Soon..

 

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